I hope you understand

I'm sorry for what I've done,

No words can justify my actions.

No poem will take back what I've said.

The truth is... you fucking scare me.

In a good way,

In a way that I've never felt before.

I've thought about it a million times.

There’s a million ways this could go wrong.

A million ways I could break your heart.

A million ways you could break mine.

I've thought about leaving,

Running away and fleeing,

Pushing you out of my life.

If I leave now I can't get hurt, but that's a lie,

If I leave now I'll be lonely forever.

See,

You say I can do better, but all I see is you.

There’s no one else.

I could have any girl in the world,

Something would still be missing.

Because her smile wouldn't be yours,

Her eyes wouldn't be your shade of blue,

Her nose wouldn’t be so perfect and cute,

She wouldn't fit in my arms the way you do.

Every notification on my phone would be a disappointment if you didn't text me anymore.

Every time is see a giraffe it would remind me that I can't show you affection anymore.

Every girl that wants to wear my sweater, wants to hold my hand, wants cuddle up next to me would just remind me that I can't be your protection anymore.

Because I broke your trust.

And I may never get it back, but I'm okay with that.

As long as you know you deserve to be loved,

You deserve to be treated with respect,

If you let me, I want to do that for you.

You’re the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met.

You have the most beautiful face I’ve ever seen.

I’ll stay up all night with you because being with you is better than anything I could ever dream.

You have the most beautiful soul and your spirit could light up a room.

You’d look good with blonde hair, black hair, brunette, or even blue.

There’s nothing that you could do to make me want to take my eyes off of you.

So I’m sorry.

Forgive me if you can,

If you want me I’m here,

I hope you understand.